Monday, May 19, 2008 ♥
Gone ; Monday, May 19, 2008
I was so stupid to believe why??? why??? why???
I know i am going to get nothing back anymore...
yea whatever i say might not be anything anymore but
the pain is unbearable because i once had you and NOW
i'm losing you... i took so hard to nave the courage to say everything
but i doubt i'll have the same courage anymore every night
i alwas tell myself nevermind it will be diff tml
but still there's no diff... anyone can say i'm just thinking too much...
but i don't think so..... i set my fears aside just to know more
but there's just always no chance for me
WHY? why did you hang me? when i cared so much...
yes i admit i say all this because i found out something but it's also through
reading other blog but can't blame me. and everynight i close my eyes all i ever see is you why?
when will you ever ever undstnd even when i tried to let go it cuts becoz i can't bear to do so
before i knew it's gna be you, i was still trying to pick myself up
but when you came along. yes i admitted i tried to denythe feeling at first but later u made
me feel it's safe to feel and i admit it before i lost you but now again i'm losing you ar i have already lost ypu i don't know but i know i lost myself to insanity but still i'm holding on and i don't know why i am................. and now i told myself just a glimps of or smile and when i know you are happy it's just enough... and i'll nvr forget the 1084 msg frm the 1st to the last whether good or bad and evry memories and words will be deeply engrave in my heart in my mind.....
But to all the people who i keep bugging you about my problems thank you for being there but i know there's nth you guys culd do too... thanks really
.........Labels: bleeding just enough to cry out blood... emo-ed
